胡思乱想。。 想这样想那样。。

I was talking to Jerry this morning, was talking about blogging and I was laughing at him for blogging once in every 2 months. To think that I used to blog almost everyday until I came back. This blog makes up mostly of my thoughts cuz I like to “胡思乱想”.

I haven't got much time to sit down to let wild thoughts run through my mind. No time too tired after work.. These are the days that appreciatete thluxuryry of being able to sleep in until the sun rises to the mid sky. Perhaps my life is more fulfilling now that I don't have to think about stuff. Or perhaps I have become a person who has no mind of my own or maybe perhaps I just couldn't be stuff to think about things anymore.

Then today something went round my head. One of my cousins has gotten a divorce, mom was trying to console my aunt by saying that divorces are common nowadays. Yes, no doubt divoce is common nowadays, but definitely not an "in thing". I still don't understand why people just go into marriages, and then to get divorced. I mean marriage is for life. I do not deny the fact that if a couple could not stand the presence of each other anymore there is no point of staying together for the sake of it. People around me get married for the wrong reasons, i.e. to apply for a flat because they want/need to move out. Or simply because they felt that it is time, quoting from someone: "we can never be ready, by the time we are ready we will be in our 40s". I mean yes, sometimes the fact that reaching "the marriagable age" does freak people out, (yep thats right it freaks me out sometimes) to me it is all about the state of mind. Why do I say that? Why do we want to be pressured to get married just because relatives say "you are next" at a wedding?
I do reflect on myself at times, prolly I'm just one of those who is selfish... I reckon yes... Being in a relationship can be the sweetest thing that happen. But wait let us pause and think.... All those heart aching moments.. All the Mr. Wrongs, all that time spent in return for a heartache... Is that all worth it? I have no idea, for all I know the heartaching part is definitly a vicious cycle.

海鸟和鱼相爱只是一场意外。。当相爱时，谁是海鸟谁是鱼已经再不重要了。。。 重要的是过程。。。